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friends Wednesday. 2.25.04 9:49 am It's been a while since I've actually called anyone my "friend". Everyone I know has turned into my many acquaintances. I've noticed a lot about each of them, that I never noticed beforehand. I’m only going to list the 3 I’ve noticed most. Friend #1: I've known this "friend" since 6th grade, for 5 years, 1/3 of my life. I must’ve been really foolish, or simpleminded or something, but I never before noticed everything wrong with this friendship. First of all, I was the only one whoever called her- to see what’s up, if she’s better from her cold, see if she needs a ride to soccer, or to hang out next weekend. I always invited her to my happenings, such as Great America, parties and get togethers between family friends. Not once in any of those 5 years have I received a phone call back from her. Apparently, she hates using the phone. But I’ll hear her yell at the Christian, the Jew, the Mormon and the beach bums when they don’t pick up the phone when she calls them for a “party, because we can” party. She forgets the Asian has feelings too. But really, the only time she ever feels like she wants to be my “best friend” is when the C, the J, the M and the B.B.s aren’t around. Or it’s raining, or it’s either of our birthdays. She likes to ridicule me in front of all of my other "friends". Poking fun at me is one of her favorite pastimes. She especially liked to make fun when I went out w. Zach, because 1.) it's kira's brother, and 2.) its me. She went as far as making fun of me, in front of not only my friends, him and myself-- but my sister. I know for a fact if I tried to pull that shit off with her, I would've been booted off the communication list. She's hurt me the most, whether she knows it or not. Friend #2: This friend first started out as a crush. You will understand once you find out I had weight training with him-- and it wasn't Zach. At first, he was the perfect guy I had ever imagined for myself -- tall, dark hair, smart. He is crazy smart- he introduced me to the world of philosophy, and psychology, as well as he opened my mind and broadened my horizons. So we became friends- and pretty good ones at that. Sometime in December, he fell sick, I gained a boyfriend, and shortly afterwards, he got a girlfriend. I'm happy for him, he got a girlfriend who is attractive, smart, Christian- and lives in Idaho. Within the same hour I meet her, I come to find she’s the devil in a Christian disguise. She hates me, not because I'm his friend, but because I am his friend who also happens to be a girl. The last time I had a real good conversation with him, she later IMs me telling me that I talk to my "friend" too much, and it's like I'm stalking her. Since then, she's had him put me on block. What The Hell. It was him who told me, "Jamie, don't give into other people's beliefs, it shows the weakness inside you." The only reason I am on block is because he didn't want to make her mad, because "they plan on being together for a long time." Even if they are going to be together for a long time, he should learn to stick up for himself. I wish I could talk to him, without her on my ass, so I could give him the same advice he gave me so long ago. Friend #3: I’ve known this friend for a year and a half or so. He confuses me crazy. He’s everyone’s friend- but you know why? He isn’t too great at standing up to other people. He seems to have this incessant need to please people around him. Well, maybe not please, but keep them satisfied so they’ll shut up. For example, he’ll be talking shit about (John) while on the phone with me, but in person, he’ll act like (John) is his best friend- so not to stir up drama. A while back, there was a rant about him in someone else’s journal located on a different server. I feel very much the same, in reference to how the writer spoke. Although I didn’t do as much for him as she did, I also would’ve appreciated an occasional phone call. I made these descriptions pretty damned obvious; hoping that they will read this, and change what they feel is necessary. I’ll probably add more throughout time when I’m bored or I find it essential. This all sounded better last night when I wrote it, but when I clicked submit, it got erased, so I shut the computer down because I was pissed. Last night, I had like 6 people each with longer descriptions, but like I said, I’ll add more throughout time. 0 Comments. Name. URL. [to enter your email, use "mailto:youremail@domain.com"] Subject. Comment. Word verification. Copy the first 4 characters only. If you are a member, try logging in again or accessing this page here.